i’m not ‘peng’ enough for you am I.. you change everytime i see you, which is like once every 2 months and each time you’ve become more different, all you talk about drugs and peng girls? ergh i dont know i’m just jealous,  but i dont like seeing people change.

such a crappy mood, i need a whole week off school so i can just stay in bed all day sleeping so i’m not eating/doing exams/seeing you. need someonee to cuddle doee

‘you know you shouldn’t eat that’ ‘**** said your fat’

i don’t want to be paranoid about my weight, i don’t want to turn beliemic or anorexic, i don’t want to look in the mirror and feel shit, but you’re pushing me that way whether you know it or not over the past few months i’ve become increasingly self loathing of my self. i don’t point out your flaws? infact i’m really fucking nice to you. i’m easy to take the piss out of or tease because i’m not one of those people who cannot rebound an amazing come back at you. i just can’t i get shy and upset and you see it all over my face, well not all the time. infact it’s only with you. in fact i’ve been reading back through texts and i don’t want to be beautiful for you anymore. what’s the point, that’s not gonna happen, i know really i just want to be accepted by you. yeah i don’t have the stick thin legs, mine are actually quite muscly and a funny shape but that didn’t seem to have been a problem to me ever since you came along. i’ve broken my nose, so therefore it’s slanted slightly to the right. you were there when i did it! so deal with it, it will look funny in photos and when i look down but i’m geting over it so why can’t you. ‘you’ve got saggy boobs’ boys seem ot have this perfection of a girl in their head. NO girl is gonna be like perfect. close too, but not quite. and i’m far frrom it, but just because you’re used to watching porn and girls with titts up to their chins from boob jobs doesn’t mean mine will do the same. i hate this feeling, and i’m starting to like you less and i’m hating what you’re doing to me